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2006-12-14T17:06:00.000-08:00

HELLOOO!!!!! LOLS. ahem ahem. yesterday i went out with ethel lim and kiona...to....ESCAPE THEME PARK AND BUGIS!!!! yayyy!!! LOLS.it was sooooooooo extrememly FUN!!!!!!!!! and while we were having fun..poor tanya was in....the one and ONLY.....LITTLE INDIA!!!!!!!! hahahaha she was wishing to go to BOON LEH. lols. *winks. hahahha...oh man poor thing....imagine the strong powerful smell blowing and swishing in the air...covering every corner of each indian!!!!! LOLS. ok anyway it isn about that....its about our really cool outing!!! hahahha!!!!!! so in the morning ms ethel lim DID NOT have to wake CELINE KEE up bcos celine kee already woke up due to her excitement...but then was kinda tired so returned to sleep for awhile for getting changed. theni went to shower and get changed and then went to pack some stuff then i went to meet ms ethel lim downstairs then we went to pick kiona up...then we hailed for a taxi and ask the driver to send us to escape!!! hahahha...in the taxi we were lauhging and laughing....hahhhaa...cos this ethel keep pranking some really stupid LAME jokes. LOLS.and we were like laughing and laughing!!! and tis ethel go and tell the taxi driver i am an indian!!!!!!! what the..DO I LOOK LIKE AN INDIAN??? oh god i was so angry with her and startded slapping her...well she got slapped through out the whole entire outing due to her MOUTH! LOLS. and then we reached escape..first we went to take the viking ship...hahahhaa!!!it was so fun!!! and ethel lim was scared!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHHHA.can yo9u believe it ..??? an idiot like her can actually be scared of a ride!!! hahahhaha!!!! then we ...took wet and wild or something like that.....me and kiona only cause again....MS ETHEL LIM was scared! LOLS. and that was like soooooo fun but me and kiona got like sooooo wet even with our raincoats!!!! it was so fun ok!!! i love that ride...then we went to take the roller coaster and ethel wanted someone to sit with her cause she was scared! lols. so i sat with her..that was so scary!!!!! hahahhaa but sooo fun!!! and we went to get some food and drinks cause i was starving cause i didnt eat my breakfast. Then...we took this ride called rainbow!!! OH MY GOD that was sooo fun la! lols. you know,..,.ethel had to sit with this malay girl...LOLS. THAT WAS SOOOOO FUN!! and i had stomach cramps after that and they were really painful so ethel and kioz went to take this yakult ride whille i went to rest cause my stomach was very painful! and then we decided to go out of escape cause the sun was like burning!!!!! lols. then we took a cap to bugis to watch eragon.....cause at first ethel lim wanted me to take mrt but i disagreed. hahahhaa. then....we went to bugis and bought the tickets but this lady who is fat...(fatter than me) she had this real big attitude problem!!! i so wanted to kick her ASSHOLE. gosh! lols. I MEAN...not her asshole!!! her...FAT GIGANTIC WOBBLY BUTT!!!!!!! what the.....i cant stand her la...then after that cause the movie was at three and it was like one something so we went to get panadol and sat at starbucks and we talked...LOLS. it was so funny ..!! all of us were laughing like crazy la!!! hahahha....and then....we went up and watch the movie.,..but first ethel lim and kiona needed to go to the toilet so i brought them to the one in the cinema and there were like so many people in the toilet and DO U KNOE WHAT MS ETHEL LIM SAID SO LOUDLY INFRONT OF EVERYONE?????????????????????????????????????????????????/ she went in and said this " OH MY GOD I SMELL SHIT!!!!!!" OMG. me and kiona were laughing like crazy ah!!!!!!!!!!!!! hhahahahahaha........and i bet if i entered the cubical...i wont pee in peace. lols.hahahahaha!!! and everyone was like staring!!! and we watch the movie..oh my god eragon is so nice la...oh yeah!! and we made nicknames for each other....kiona = fang pi! celine = poopoo ethel= peepee!!! LOLS LOLS LOLS. and then we said ethel was malay so she is mrs muhamad abdulah and then she married an indian and became mrs bangalee. lols. so...together...its mrs muhamad abdulah bangalee!!! lols...!!!!! and then after the movie we bought friendship bracelets and we also took neoprints...hahahaha!! it was so fun!!!!!!! and the three of us got one each...hhaha..!!! and then we went to another toilet after the cinema and it was so small...and i was like " lets go out la" and ethel was like " ya because you so big and the toilet so small..." WAH LIAO...and everyone in the toilet was like giggling. WHAT THE.....SO EMBARRASSING LA!!!!!!! and lastly for thie VERY FIRST TIME....I TOOK MRT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA AND I ALSO SWEAR I WILL NEVER GO AGAIN!~ hahhahaha i told ethel that if i see one indian..i am not sitting on the mrt already,...lols..and then i was so lost in the mrt station..there were like millions of people...AND THEN..out of all the whites and yellos.s...and mayb a little browns.....i saw......REALLY DARK BROWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD I DRAGGED ETHEL AND MADE HER LOOK AT THE INDIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but ethel dragged me into the whatever palce lols. and i could not go out anymore!!!!! oh no...and in the mrt that was worst!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOLS. oh god...so many stinky people and their armpits were l;ike facing you....YUCK! eww..lols. but after all.IT was a great day/ hhahaha.

LESSONS I LEARNT

1 NEVER TAKE AN MRT
2 DON GO OUT WITH ETHEL LIM. SHE DISGRACES YOU AND HERSELF.
3 RUN WHEN YOU SEE AN INDIAN BEFORE ITS TOO LATE

lols. chao <33

2006-12-13T05:23:00.000-08:00

CELINE IS ANGRY WITH THE WORLD. VERY ANGRY. why cant they just realise that huang pee ren SUCKS.

-dissapointed-

2006-12-13T05:11:00.000-08:00

LOLS..i forgot to post about star awards..LOLS. it was a nice and dissapointing one.

NO.1 ------ NO FAIR.!! MS TANYA LEE WENT TO WATCH!!!!!o.O );

NO.2------- STUPID KEVIN OR KELVIN WHATEVER SHIT HIS NAME IS...WON OVER BEST NEW COMER INSTEAD OF MY DARLING ELVIN!!!!!!!!!!! o.O): ( what the hell is wrong with those voters eyes? of course except mine...and tanya's.THIS IDIOT IS UGLY, OMG I SHALL SO NOT TALK ABOUT HIS ROTTEN DECAYING TEETH...YUCK HIS DANGLING PUSSY JUICY REDDISH PIMPLES!!!! AND THE OIL ON HIS FACE..O YUCK!-vomits- its like ...eww.you pour it out can be a few litres!!! YUCK!..and how about my darling elvin?
face no oil...face no pimples...and teeth nicely done!!!!!!!!

NO.3 (MOST dissapointing)------HUANG BIREN GOT IN????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UNDER TOP TEN????????????????????????????????????????????????//////
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THE WORLD?/ WHY ISSIT LACKING SO MUCH OF ME?????? EXCUSE ME!!!! HUANG BIREN IS OLD, STINGY, SELFISH, UGLY, WRINKLY, PROUD, BOSSY, MOPPY, SLOPPY, AND ALL THE BAD STUFF YOU CAN THINK ABOUT!!!! AND WHAT??? she is IN????????????????/ OH MANNN!!!!!! when the hosts calloed her name..i could sense that i can be breathless in like a few seconds!!!! and what time of name is that???? BI REN?????? HUANG BIREN??? it could be ...HUANG PEE REN!!!!!! wth la...!!!!! that so suits her!!! i am so so so angry with the world!!!!...HELLO??? DOESNT THE WORLD REALISE THAT CELINE KEE IS LIKE x10000000000000000000000000000000 times better than HUANG PEE REN??? OH MAN!

I AM SO SO SO SOS SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOOS DISSAPOINTED WITH THE WORLD~!!!!

2006-12-13T04:57:00.000-08:00

HELLO!! oh man..i am soooooo excited for tomorrow..haha!!!i am FINALLY going out with kioz and ethel!!!! yeeks!!! LOLS.i never been out with kioz bfor and guess where we are going.....ESCAPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yayy!!! hahahha. i haven been to escape for like...forever? lOls. I AM seriously SOOOOO excited!!! and according to ms ethel lim...we are going to take the hot air balloon too!!!! OMG i am so freakin excited. so sad tanya is in church camp if not we could have even more fun with her coming!!!!!i am seriously thinking of taking out my pw for my blog cos it seems so empty out of a sudden. LOLS. cos only...3 people know? lols. yeah. hahhaa. so today...i was mapling and mapling...lols...non stop...but in the afternoon till like 5:30 pm... maple was like under maintenence so me and ethel talked on the phone and we did something special!!!! lols...SECRET! hahaha....ethel...you should noe what,..

- oh god..i so hope ethel lim ( mrs ahem ahem!) does not disgrace us tmr..you know how she can be...LOLS.

2006-12-12T05:12:00.000-08:00

LOLS ...i changed my blogskin!!!!!!!!! hahahhaha...its abit different from the few i have chosen

2006-12-08T10:29:00.000-08:00

ok the previous post was vulgar. sorry. i said it out of anger. well, i shall delete it. i came back from my trip already, over all it was great!!! hahaha...so i came back home at 8 plus and called ms ethel lim..lols. yeahh...actually i wanted to go on a holiday because i wanted to start anew and stuff. like....forget all those horrible stuff. haha and it worked. you should know that chrys and caz are like SUPER DUPER angry with me. and like i don think they wanna be my friend anymore. MAN! yeahhh and the worst thing is that they keep badmouthing me infront of others so others tend to hate me too. so FINALLY i came abck fresh and ready to let go. it took quite a long time for me to forget those UNHEALTHY things. and...HERE I AM. ready!!! haha.this morning around eight plus...i went to the french church around our hotel and i went to take a look. haha the church was sooooo pretty. and when i entered i just wanted to pray. haha so i sat down and just prayed. i prayed that me and caz could be friends again. and guess what? when i went online at night...caz said she does not wanna fight anymore. i was happy for like a few minutes...then i dunno, my weird feelings came out again.sigh. OH YEAHH!!!!!! in that country...i shall not mention,...lols. i took a trishaw!!!!! omg! its like so cool la! A TRISHAW YOU KNOW!!! where people cycle at the back and stuff...and omg the food there is soooooo delicious !!!!!!!!!!!!!! we spent like millions on food....omg!!!!! the seafood is like gigantic and like...wow....SO YUMMY! and then we went to shop!!!! oh yes!!!! their shopping is soooo cool and big!!!!!!!!! so i grabbed the stuff i wanted but i only could buy some.. i bought a converse shoe. cause i think its like cheaper there...in singapore its like hmm....80-100++ and like the shoe i bought was only 70! OMG. so my sister bought one too. lols.mann...the converse there has like so many designs that singapore does not have...(i think) and its like so colourful!!!! hahaha! i wanted 2 designs...but its like.all of them don have my size. so i was like wondering " IS MY FOOT THAT BIG?!" lols. but then i realised it isnt, my foot isnt big...the shoe is small. so haha ...yayy!!!! then we bought the shoes and moved on to make up.AND OMG....the make up there is like so much more expensive la!!! one stupid mascara from loreal is like seventy dollars in singapore. so we decided not to get it. so i moved on to shoes....and i saw this really cute pink shoes...omg...its like a bit shiny and stuff..so its really cute. !!! i wanted to buy it but my mom said no....and about bags...hahaha. there is this brand called pet shop and they have all these really adorable animal prints that they put on the bags!!!! its really childish but hey, who cares!!!! its so cute!!!! haha so i could not resist and bought one. my sis bought like 3...and yeahh...OK now i shall elaborate on the food. haha. THE TOPIC I AM BEST AT. haha. FOOD.lols....ok so we ate seafood first and its like near the sea....so its really cool and the sea food is super fresh. so its super yummy!!! haha...and one of my favourite dishes was the grilled cutterfish...its like they kinda grilled and barbequed the cutterfish on charcoal so there is this really nice smell...and its so tasty!!!!! mmmm...my gosh...it taste sooo good i ate thatt until my stomach was like gonna expload. lols. ok i needa go to sleep already. lol i shall continue tomorrow. haha. ok then...CHAO

2006-11-21T04:27:00.000-08:00

hahha i just came back from vivo city again!! haha.and guess who i saw??? well, its not that big la but haha, i saw renfred ng from 'jue dui superstar" hahaha...chryselda's x crush.lols.hahaha.i saw him with his friends and oh my god la..he is so tall you know...i think about 180++ ....lols.like a giraffe.haha.and his hair is really nice.is like stlyed very nicely la.haha!!! and sadly, there is something wrong with my blog.cant change the music one.ahhaha. oh ya, back to renfred. ok.....he was like wearing this like nice nice shirt la....its like black in colour and then he wore jeans..he was with his friends...and hahaha.he is really cute la!! lols......hahaha. he seems to be a nice guy cause he was like smiling and smiling.ahahhaa.( i don like him)...ya thats about it. but i was like in a rush to return home so i just took a glance and walk away...hahaha. i love vivo man....today i checked out the basement 2 of vivo..hahhaha. and vivo is seriously nice if you have money to spend.hahahha. hehe..i finally know who is sarah refering to in chrys's blog.hahhaa!!! -.-" i am so scared about thursday. i am really scared i cant get back to sc.....and i will have to end up in a neighbourhood school with weirdos and low class asses like yun nam and friends. mann,....i don wanna turn into a geeky nerdy student. ewww.....-faints- i really hope i can get back into my school.......man.-guilt- i so regret not working hard at the first place. hahah..i hardly even listen in class when the teacher is teaching. half the time i would be dead.haha. but well, maybe i should look at the bright side, i mean, look at chryselda.(chrys, no offence) she does not even study la!!!!!! lols...and she does not listen in class too. half the time she would be thinking about branded stuff and what to shop for during the weekends. ;p;lols.
hahhaha. no offence chryselda! so i guess it wont be that bad la. lols. ok i am taking things tooo easy,haha, hahah...my new maid's name is MARY!!!!!! ahahhahahahahahahahahha!!!its actually mary jane but my mom says we should call her mary!! aahhahahaha, mary!!!! like some french maid thing. lols. haha. i am going for holidays le.!!! yipee!! hahaha. but ): its a educational trip): we were suppose to go to london...but mommy said i needed to see how poor people live and stop dreaming of living in a mansion, shopping for branded stuff everyday, earning millions of dollars,having a ferrari and taking over bill gates' place.): i was like" what the...." she should be happy that her daughter is dreaming of those type of future. i mean pls...thats what everyone wants right....i mean who the hell would wish to be poor and live in a kampung hut....this is common sense. lols.hhahaha.( no offence to yin hui, nigel, keane and blah blah..i know i m insulting your house and village) then daddy made things better for me. hehe. he told mommy i could have at least 3 days of shopping!!! so that was good. hahaha. but still, i needed to go for my educational trip first. but at least i did not have to live in those " lan" hotels la..lols. daddy says i can choose either hilton or hyatt!!!! yipee!!!!!!!! hahahahhaha!!! sorry, i m jus tooo happy!! hahha. so i guess the trip wont be that bad la. haha.-.-"but i mean, i am still thinking of who would wish to be poor and live in a kampung hut made of banana leaves. haha. that person must be like OVERWHELMINGLY helpless. ahahhahaha!!! i m being evil. -.-" lols.ok i m gonna see whether my darling elvin is in for star awards. hahaha. CHAO<33

2006-11-20T02:50:00.000-08:00

well, sadly, the song in my blog is also used for silyn's blog so maybe i will change it. ahha...i am thinking of putting " zhi dui ni you gan jue" ...fahrenheit and hebe sang it..its really nice ..haha. haha my cousins are at my house now. ahhaha. i wanna take picture of this really cute cousin called gordon..haha. he is like only..4 ..haha. he is so cute. haha. and a cry baby too. haha...ok see whether he let me first..haha. ahahhaha..i m laughing non stop at zhang lao shit's display pic on msn..aahahhaha...i think all my cousins must think i am a weird person.haha caz is coming back today....but she never call me yet. ahhh!!! hate her....poor thing you know, she called me up when she was in australia..her hotel is really scary you know.....hahhaa me and chrys are talking about lao shi's dp/.lols...she is making me laugh like crazy

CELINE AZA AZA FIGHTING!!! it all ends today says:
u see alr?
CELINE AZA AZA FIGHTING!!! it all ends today says:
lols
CELINE AZA AZA FIGHTING!!! it all ends today says:
very fuinny right?
listen shhhhhhh! says:
yeah
listen shhhhhhh! says:
so eeyer
CELINE AZA AZA FIGHTING!!! it all ends today says:
hahahahhahaahhaa
CELINE AZA AZA FIGHTING!!! it all ends today says:
hahhahahahhaha
CELINE AZA AZA FIGHTING!!! it all ends today says:
ya
CELINE AZA AZA FIGHTING!!! it all ends today says:
but we very bad
listen shhhhhhh! says:
hahahhahahah
listen shhhhhhh! says:
who the hell shoot that
CELINE AZA AZA FIGHTING!!! it all ends today says:
ahahahahahahhhahahahahahhaa u very funny lehs
listen shhhhhhh! says:
hahahahahhahahaa
listen shhhhhhh! says:
who shoot?

haha..so funny. hehe..OMG.i am gonna die of boredom. i wish i was in a big shopping centre. hahaha...my dreams..hehe. and i am so damn tired but i don wanna sleep. man life is so damn weird. ahahhaa.haha...ok tanya helped me change my song to shi dui ni you gan jue already, hehe,..no more beyonce. ): thats sad. hahaha....its like seven something and mr sun is like already gone. haha...i just realised something. haha.HOWEVER, I CANT TELL COS ITS A SECRET BETWEEN ME AND CHRYSELDA ...haha. she just told me something.haha. ok i am gonna die of boredom already, don be suprised if i don exist anymore by tomorrow.hehe i m so proud of chrys...she put full house song in her blog. hahaha!!! yipeee!!! full house rocks.my dad says he will buy me the dvd and the soundtrack too. yayy!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.oki think thats enough for today, i m going to carry on with my drama series. hahaha.cya!

wishing for tomorrow to be better-- -.-"

2006-11-19T23:25:00.000-08:00

daddy's taiwan costomers came to singapore today and daddy and mommy asked me to come and join them for lunch. and because they wanted to eat in a hawker centre..i had no choice but to accept the fact that i m gonna eat in that dirty disgusting place. so we went to adam road to eat la. then i was like looking around.....FOR A CLEAN PLACE. ok wait, before i continue, i m no being a spoilt brat la k...i just cant stand dirty places..ok then, mommy ask me to sit down and daddy's face was like disgusted ...my grandpa, my aunts and uncles, my dad, me and my sis, and my mom HATES going to those places to eat...we either buy back or totally do not step into that place. so mayb it runs in the family. and because the place was so goddamn pack..we jus sat down in this table that has not been taken up ...the taiwan people seems to be very interested in the place..they seem to be very excited eventhough i do not know why someone whould seem that happy when they are in a dirty, disgusting, place. So obviously, i had no appetite.i was wondering whether to hawkers actually wash their hands before they cook or whether they clean their hands after touching the disgusting tables.and when i look at the table, the person before me spat his yellowish saliva on it.......i was like "OMG...EWWWWWWWWWW!!!" and worst, the people next to me were.....were...ahems ahems.....and the smell..omg. i was gonna cry...it was so dirty!!!! and you know, that place seriously has ALOT of catholic high boys. they keep walking here and there..i wonder why.they can take it??? omg....and they have school today? i thought its the holidays already. well, whatever, as long as i never ever ever go back there ever again. then i will be safe and sound.

2006-11-19T23:20:00.000-08:00

haha..changed my blogskin and the music..too bad people..no more full house music. lols.. but i will put again la k? lols. i was like so damn bored at home and so decided to search for some blogskins...then ya i saw this one so i quite liked it so just put. haha. i put beyonce irreplaceable for the song..haha. its quite nice la. but i prefer naughty girl. haha. i am so guilty cos today my mom wanted to bring me out and i was like " ok la" then she left because i told her to let me go later...and now i wish i went...-guilt- ok..man our marks are coming out on thursday, and i am sooooo scared. i am so scared i cant get back. -shrug-

2006-11-17T21:42:00.000-08:00

hehe...yesterday i went out with chrys and rachel to taka, wisma, and cine. haha. we wanted to watch a movie but ended up talking and talking. haha.so at first, i was like so excited about thatt day....so i slept at like 3am at night and woke up at like 7!!! hahhaha,....cos i seriously could not sleep. haha.so in the morning i went online at like 8 am and nobody was online. except for myself. hahaha. so i was like bored to death so i watched the last few episodes of full house again. and it was already like 11in the morning...so i went to bathe and get ready. so after i bathed, i came out and this rachel ahh.....called me and said she is like downstairs at the fountain already. and i was like " WHAT THE..." i think there is something wrong eith her brain. i told her to come at 12 pm and not like what....11.20 am??? hello??? so no choice..i changed into my house clothes and went down to pick her up ...and she came in and so she played the com..and i went to change and get ready....and then, chrys came...and my mom fetched us to cine. so when we reached, i wanted to buy my fake nails...but then they decided to take neos first...so we went to take neos, and then we went to check the movie timing ...we wanted to watch the grudge 2...haha...but it was like so scary..cos we watched the trailer at my house before going..and all of us were like screaming and stuff.,,it was sooooo scary...but then they did not have the movie at cine...then it was like about 2 o clock already..so we went to taka to eat sushi tei for lunch and ya...before we could een order our food...we already took the sushi from that moving machine...and then me and chrys was like eating already..cos we were starving. haha,. then we ate..then we ordered some stuff for lunch. and ahaha....we stayed there for more than an hour...and we were like talking and laughing ...especially when we say something funny, then everybody will be like laughing like crazy...hahahahhaa!!!! yeah, and it was like sooooo funny. lols. and we will be like laughing like siao then everyone was like looking at us...hahaha!!! then we talked and talked but it was like sooooo funn!!! cos we laughed so mucch...hhaa..then we payed up and the total was 70 plus...so we payed and then went to taka....and like walk around..and because we did not wanna like watch the movie casino royale so we went to do our nails...yupp, medicure. lols. and then we went to voxy to do it....and the lady said that we could only come back at like 4 something..so we went to walk areound first....and then we went to do our nails...and then after we did it, we went to starbucks and like....drink latte and like mocha..and then hahhaa....we went to sit down...all continued talking and worst ..this time..we were TOTAL lunatics....and we kept laughing like crazy ...hahahahhaa!!!!! and everyone was like looking at us...and ahahhahaa...me and chrys was laughing like crazy and we kept hitting rachel cos we were laughing like crazy..and ahhahaa...it was like so funny...and poor rachel was like.....sitting there complaining. lols...but it was like so cool. and ahahha, we were like so damn crazy....and we were like laughing and laughing...ahhaha..then my mom came to fetch us and we went back to my house...and then on the com................we did something so funny !!! hahhaa!!!! but hey man, chrys and rach, ITS A SECRET right??? hahhaha..

2006-11-16T18:23:00.000-08:00

hahha..full house<3333.>

FULL HOUSE RAWKS<33333333

2006-11-16T08:26:00.000-08:00

hahhhaa!!! i changed my blogskin again!!! haha...i saw this one...and was like " hmm..ok ok !" so haha....haha its like 12:20 am haha. and i am talking to rachel. lols.haha. i have gotten over the stupid meepok thing lahs. haha. hehe. tanya helped me put in the song!! haha...i am like crazy over full house now!!! mann i love it!! haha. full house<33>

AZA AZA FIGHTING!!!! which means go go jia you!!!!! in korean!!!
learnt in full house!!!!! hahahha
full house<333

2006-11-15T00:32:00.000-08:00

oh no!!!!!!!!!!!!!man....i heard that the mee-pok uncle from our school died this morning. its like wednesday....i heard he dies of a stroke. this is so sad. no more mee-pok for all of us. and pls....every recess, there would be like so many people buying his mee-pok and now he is like gone.haha...i still remember that me, nat ,sherri, ser, always cuts into the queue and the people behind us will always start grumbling and stuff...haha. haha...and then there was a time when this idiot girl who wasnt happy with us cutting into the queue and she went to tell a teacher....oh man...me , nat, fishy, serene, alexis was like so damn screwed la....lols and so that teacher, mrs tay went to look for us and it was like lao shi's period and then she said we have to do canteen duty for 2 weeks. i wanted to scream at her when she said that....errr....pick up garbage and litter in the canteen....dude!!! does she knoe how dirty the canteen is?! and oh my god....its so unhygenic la!!!! then that mrs tay started commenting on my earings.....just because my earings were in a different colour...the left was like pink i think...and the right was like green.....and then she started giving me this stupid lecture about wearing earings that are either in silver, gold and blahblah.....i wanted to slap her!!!! i mean...hello???? this is like my freedom ok....i wanted to tell her to mind her own business!!! so no choice...all of us had to do duty but then nobody went to do it...hahaha!!! and the great thing was that that teacher did not come and look for us...hahahha!!!! so at the end...i did not have to pick up litter and garbage!!! hahaha!!!!!those were like the good times mann....haha....i m so damn bored now......smsing and nobody is like online...ok people are online..but there isnt any nice things to talk about. sigh. i wanna go back to school..i m having a slight fevertoday so i cant go out of the house according to mommy...haha on friday i am going out with sherri, chryselda and rachel....we are gonna watch the grudge 2..i m scared i cant sleep but its ok, cos if i cant sleep, i will blame it on chrys and rach cos they were the ones who decided on it. haha. i finish watching full house already and omg....its so nice...and i am so in love with that song.....haha. its so nice sia...haha. Cheo Eum Keu Cha Ri E ....yupp thats the song...i love it.. haha..it might not be like hip hop and stuff but its so sad...so its really nice. haha...i am starting to appreciate sad songs nowadays..haha. its raining again...haha!!! great!!! i love rainy days,.,haha....OK MEE POK UNCLE...hope u rest in peace.....i will miss yr mee pok....ALOT.

2006-11-07T23:37:00.000-08:00

2006-11-07T23:14:00.000-08:00

chrys came back to sing already...she might be coming to my house tomorrow with caz....i think. poor caz, have dance all the time. thats why she could not sleepover at ser's that day!!! erghh!!! but i could..now, be patient people...after i get the pics from lazy bumm caz, i will post about the class party and the sleepover!!! heehee...i love my new blogskin!!! but its kinda sad!! well, as long as its nice...then ya, ok. man...i m dying of boredom. nobody to talk to.. the people on msn are either playinbg maple, or busy doing something else. well, what to do. hehe...the st michael boys have camp till friday!!! shit..i wanna go and watch them suffer in pain in camp!! ahahaha!!! i hate camp!!! i hate it!!! and can you believe it? they are going to the same place as us!!! oopsey~~ they are gonna suffer man!! camp was horrible. because of camp, i have this slight fear of entering public toilets...wanna know why? i remembered in camp, my domitory's toilet was like flooded with pee....ewww...and i everytime i enter it....i nearly puked so quite a number of us will go to the male toilet....incase we get attacked by the pee..so when we were having activities....i suddenly felt like peeing....so i went to the toilet...and eww...the smell from the girl's toilet so i had no choice but to go to the male one. so i was kinda happy when i realised nobody was there...and then....after peeing, i came out...and oh god, i saw this man...aiming his "thing" to this thingin....(i dunno what the hell it is) and then he turned to look at me....I WAS LIKE.....OH MY GOODNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i started screaming and ran out!!!! OH GOD..SO EMBARRASSING YOU KNOE!!!!i wanted to cry when i realised that male was my coach for the next activity.....so he kept giving me the eye.....oh gosh i was like disgusted la!!!! so now...i have this fear when i enter the toilet...i will make sure its the ladies....

2006-11-07T22:30:00.000-08:00

hees!!! i changed my blogskin....FINALLY!!!! i gotten over of the MASCARA!!! hees!!!tanya helped me.... i changed the song too man!!! okay i have one announcement...i know that SOME of you people.....will say something about the skin...like who it is refering to and whatever, haha. but sadly, it isnt refering to anyone ok.....well mayb it is..but, err..ah forget it.

2006-11-05T21:13:00.000-08:00

GONE TO VIVO!!!!!! WITH CAZ AND SHERRI!!!!
hahahah..i went to vivo city with caz and sherri !!! and i did my nails!!! french manicure!!!hahaha..when we went to vivo...sherri first went to coffee bean and bought a mocha then we started our shopping!!! we walked around first....and then went to check out gap...again!!!! and then we looked around and stuff.....and the lunch was the best part!!!! we went into this fine dining restaurant and the waitresses and waitors kept looking down on us!!! erghhhh!!! they are just people working there u knoe!! what makes them think they are so grrreeeaaattt!!!! i bet all of them just lives in kampungs and everyday, they cant afford to buy themselves a meal so they just dive down into their disgusting dirty river next to their huts and jus catch fish!!! ahahahhahaha!!!! so it was like the food was kinda exx....cos i was kinda BROKE...and then, i ordered a plate of pasta and coke...oh mhy god..u knoe...the coke cost $7!!!! ahahaha!! ita the most expensive coke in the world...so my small plate of pasta and coke cost $36!!! and i ordered dessert!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well, everyone did!!!! oh god!!! the dessert was sooooo nice !!! i spent $26 on 3 cakes...i had one, sherri had the other, and i brought back one. i wanted to let daddy and mommy try!!!oh goshh!!! i was sooo full!!!!and then sherri even had to losen her belt!!! ahaahahha it was soooo funny!!! and then...we continued our shopping!!!! then we watched a movie....hahah!!! it was nice....i watched material girls!!! oh gosh...the cinema in vivo is soooooo nice and big!!ahhhhh!!! it was quite an okok show!!! then i had to go ...it was my baby cousin's birthday!!!! so i went to my grandma's hse...and we had the party!!! so many people were there..and there were wuite a few that i did not knoe...and then my grandma's sister came to me and pinched my cheeks..for that moment..i was sooooo scared i will get PIMPLES!!! eeyer!!! so i went to the toilet straight away and washed my face...then there was this girl.....OH GOD!!!!!!!!! I HATE HER!!!!! SO DAMN MUCH!!!!!! she was my cousins classmate...and my cousin was four...so she was four..her name is angel!!!!!!!!! OH GOD!!!! yeah, her family is rich la...but she obviously does not have any class at all!!! then,. when i went to my cousins room...she came in without any permission like she owned the place and just sat there...and then..she was like " err..cant u just go out of here>?!" to my baby cousin, gordon, in this realy bitchy american acent tone!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what the hell...i wanted to spit on her!!! however i was drinking coke..i was so angry!!!how dare she push my darling cousin around???? so i got real mad and said in this bitchy tone like hers.." oh god...this room stinks after some people came in and obviously thst person thinks she is the oldest!!!! oh gosh...." and then i shook my head..so she stared at me...and then she was like rolling her eyes at me!!! she was wearing this bare-back shirt and like a mini skirt...i was soooo angry...and then...this was the part i got so angry with her...when i was in the room..then she took her mom's louis vuitton bag..then she brought it into the room..then she was like carrying it....then she told her friend, " this bag is very expensive!!!my mom has alot" then her frien was like " so rich" (her friend is like abt 6 yrs old la) then she was like "of course!" ..she talks in this american slank...cos she went to america for like 3 and a half yrs..then she came back....then i was like eating...at that time...i spat out my food!!! whatt the hell!!!!!!!!!!! i was like ' that bloody bitch"!!!!! erghhhh!!!!!!!!!!! i hate her...then the part where i got so angry/...she bathed with this guy called brendon...this smalley la...then she was like giggling..ewww....i could not stand her anymore....so i was like pointing to her and i was like "ewwwwww!!!!" hahahha..then she was like quite angry with me....so after she bathe, when she was like going home...she stepped on my shoes!!!! oh god!!! gracious me!!! i was soooo angry so i sort of "accidentally" kicked her,,,......and then bcos my heels was like quite sharp...she had a cut..then she started crying!!! ahahahahah!!! i was so happy!! but my mom saw..and then...she punished me..she made me eat the squashed mashed cake that has been destroyed...luckily...the cake was quite yummy!!! thank goodness!!! heehee.

was it a lucky dayy???

2006-11-03T07:34:00.000-08:00

FREAKY FREAKY HALLOWEEN
HAHA..well that was the pics of carolyn's halloween party...we were celebrating it at costa sands resort which is right next to escape theme park!!! weeetttsss!!! well, it was actually a sleepover...but mommy did not allow me to sleepover..so sadly. but then, she was nice enough to let me go for both days!!! On the first day, only a no. of us came, as the actual party is on saturday....so silyn sarah sherri all came to my house right after school and then mommy or daddy will bring us there..cool huh...then we took some pics...then when we reached there...haha...so called " demon" serene, was a scardy cat....she did not dare to bathe bcos of a halloween pic of a woman which was pasted on the wall inside the bathroom...lol...ok i should not be saying this as i was scared too. HAHA,then.eah that was abt it. the next day was better mann!!!! lexx and nat and jade came to join us,,..we went to escape as well!!! that day nearly all of us was celebrating halloween....so we brought our costumes...i dressed as some rotten faced old woman...eww...and yeah serene became an emo gal....and silyn was wrapped in aluminium foil....lol....she became the emo tin man!!! haha....so at first we played at escape..it was funn!!! especially when i was trying not to scream on the viking ship...lol....and we played it like a million times!!! me and carolyn kept going back to sit on it!!! hahaha!! we went like a few times and then sat other rides!!! i wanted to sit on this really scary ride which likes turn you 360 degrees ....but sarah backed out and obviously..i do not wanna sit alone...well...so i could not ride on it!!! haha...but sherri and lex ws having fun on that ride!!! so after the fun...we went back to the chalet...and then rested for awhile cos jade had a headache and then. it was almost time for dinner!!! so everyone wore their halloween costume and yeah..daringly walked around when everyone was staring at us..but not for me, i did not dare to...i mean people are gonna think i am some lunatic....then i had to pay lex $5 for walking around with my mask and scare children!!! haha that was soooo fun..the little children started screaming....and i guess they were kinda scared..then this guy....he came and he said " i will box u" and he and lexx was gonna start a fight!!!! hahhahaha! that was soooo cute!! and nearly everyone was staring at alexis....hahahaha!!! i guess that would be rather embarrassing!!! haha....after eating our yummy kfc chicken!!!! we had to go back to the chalet as it was getting dark....and we watche xiao hai bu ben 2.....hahahha!!! and then....yeahh...we went back to escape...but only some people went as the rest have gone home...so i went too...it was like nine thirty somehting alr...and they were playing the MOVIE TRAILER of the grudge 2...so many freaky and scary noises were like there..then we were queing up for the viking ship and we saw.......................................................A BAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it flew across us..all of us were so scared and ran towards the people lining up...eeks!! then we started saying some ghost stories and stuff...oh goshhh....i was sooo scared..and i could tell caz was scared too!!! ok...wait..i cant continue anymore...its 12 midnight alr...and i m scaring myself...ok ....but over all....it was soooooooooooooooooooooooooo funn!!! i am never forget this day mann!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<33333333

2006-11-03T07:06:00.000-08:00

ONE OF THE BEST DAYS IN MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CAZ'S HALLOWEEN PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
another escape theme park visit!!!!!
is this the best halloween or what!!!!!!!!!!!

hehe...so this is the best halloween....<33333333333
next post...all abt the partehhh babes!!!

2006-11-02T22:10:00.000-08:00

going vivo with carolyn!!!!!!!!
haha yupp..i am going vivo tomorrow with caz! oh gosh..i cant possibly wait! i love vivo!!! but its so crowded! but nice! tomorrow night is baby gordon's birthday! we are having a barbeque..yayy!!! can eat again!!! haha...i love going to grandma's hse...eventhough she is deceased but her house is super big! its a big bungalow...yup...i love that place! haha...,gordon is my cousin..baby boy cousin!! he is so cute! i will put his picture in my blog after the party tomorrow! yupp, he is so cute!!! but he is kinda sissy as he likes playing with dolls.-shrug-
i guess its bcos the rest of my 5 cousins are all girls and he is the only boy in the family. ahaha. yeah and we girls, play with dolls! yupp, well i am seriously sooo excited! this serene is soooooo evil!~!! she does not want to send me the pics we took at caz's halloween party! hmph!!! i wanna put it in my blog!!! lol...

2006-11-02T04:07:00.000-08:00

DAMN!!! i want to change my blogskin but oh gosh..i love the eye on the skin cos it has my favourite thing that i can't possibly survive without it..THE MASCARA!! LOL. well, last day of school..i imagined myself breaking down the day before but managed to survive it on the actual day.i did not feel a thing..am i weird?? yeah i guess so. Maybe because the heartless teachers had to leave us sitting down under the burning sun just to say goodbye to ms heng!! It is kinda sad that she is leaving but i mean, the teachers did not have to leave us to die right?? It was soooo hot!!!! the holidays have started and all i am planning to do..is sit and play the computer...!!! when actually, i am kinda sick of it. That day..mommy and daddy's friends from india came and decided to have dinner with us...but first we went shopping. At first, i could not take the blow!!! Can u imagine that they were my neighbours!!! and i used to go to school everyday with their two sonS??lol..i was gonna burst into laughter when my mind was filled with these thoughts!!! so as usual, when aunty saw me, she pinched my cheeks so hard!!! with her hands!!!!!!!!! but no worries, they did not smell..i guess they came from the better part of india, delhi, where i heard the rich people live and as well as the stars, so i believe that their life is muchhh better than those indians who just spend their entire life lying on the street..lol. yeah..and then we went to vivo!!!!! to shop!! oh gosh!!!!! it is soooo big now!!! many new shops are like opening soon too!!! the place was incredible!! and then mommy brought me inside gap...and i was like sooo shocked!!!! As usual, my shopping apening money spirit came back and i started grabbing what i want, and yeah, being in a good mood, my mom agreed to buy them for me! then we browsed through other nice shops...and then went for dinner...we ate sea food!!! i have been craving for the chilli crabs for like a week!!! and finally, I COULD HAVE THEM!!!! so as usual, i started eating and eating...none stop!!! and daddy and uncle was talking about buissness...and mommy and aunty was talking about the GREAT places in india...!!!! and aunty suddenly brought up the topic of bringing me to visit the "nice" country of india!!!!!!!!!! when i heard that..i nearly spat out all the food!!!!! NO WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! luckily, mom said that my schedule was pack...knowing that i m never gonna step out of the hse if i really was gonna be sent to india!!! the smell!!!!! it can kill me!!!! one indian is alr soo bad..imagine a few million!!!today i asked my mom whether we would really be going to india and to my shock and horror...MY MOM SAID YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MOM SAYS WE WILL BE GOING NEXT YR DURING THE HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOT INDIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-10-23T01:00:00.000-07:00

buahahahaha...okay..so i heard ms bay is gonna be fired!!! is this a gd thing or a bad thing??? of coarse it is good!!!! seriously this is a dream come true!!! well, truely, its kinda devastating because i guess she is a teacher that allows us to have fun and just enjoy ourselves by making fun of us..but still, i hate her!!! she sucks...and this is true...because i cant seem to find anyone else who sucks as much as her..buahaha!!! am i that evil..yeah i guess so. heehee. darryl gan called me an aunty!!! excuse me...do i look like one!!! i am so darn insulted!!! but i shall not talk about that anymore..haha..oh gosh..its so devastating when i refresh my mind that school is ending on friday..its like the end..of everything..all the scolding and fun..i am gonna miss all my friends so much..especially those who gave me rightful and lasting memories..i guess i m gonna breakdown on friday..seriously, its so upsetting..i am gonna miss all of you so much..i swear!!! its gonna be so terrible...and some of my friends are still ponning school..are they so heartless??? like hello...its ending and they dont appear at all...they are so heartless ...dont they bother about being with their friends..it kinda upsets me when i think about those people...because they just care about themselves! better, some even leave the country...how nice of them!!! Anyway, whatever..today is monday and everyone was obsessed with princess hours!!! its really nice!!! I guess i am obsessed with it too!! haha!!!haha..and we were watching it in class neaarly the whole time in school then we played truth or dare..as in not the whole class, but like me, serene, esther, caz, nadia, tanya, kiona, natalie..yupp!!! i learnt quite alot about their latest juciest news..like their new crush and stuff!!! cool huh?? yeah sarah and sherri ponned school today...so it was suprising that sarah skipped school..normally, i would expect her to come as you knoe, to many people, she belongs to the better type of students unlike some which are just a noisy bunch of weeds to the teachers..example: serene! haha,..no offence. but i m speaking facts..lol. After school, me, serene, nat and caz went to balmoral plaza , waffle town to have lunch, the food was soooooo good!!! but i was kinda broke, so i still owe nat some cash..and we had a full satisfying lunch...which was so good cause we were talking and eating at the same time,...it was soo cool!!! i wanna have that again!!! lol...then we went to balmoral plaza's 7 eleven for mash potato!!! yumm!!! then we went home..haha,...my sis went for her girlfriend's party at raffles town club...no fair..i guess they are having a great time...while i am sitting in her room...updating this post...i know, this post is boring..lol...sorry, i know when u read it, u r totally gonna die of boredom..lol...nvm...i shall stop talkin and end this post...i will keep u updated!!!<3!
btw TUITION PEEPS! cy and m isnt GAY!!! lol...cy said this " To the contrary, prior to many people's belief, i m straight!' which means he isnt gay!!! and obviously i m not sure about michael..bcos he seems to be 2-timing...but CY ISNT GAY!!! LOL...

byebye!!! i wont miss u!

2006-10-19T03:25:00.000-07:00

okay...so today i went out with caz and ethel...we went to heeren first then taka...it was funn./especially in heeren when we weent to the restaurant...then carolyn started addin loads of salt into the cup of ice~!!! hahahahahaha!!!! she kept addin and addin...doin this stupid things...hahahaaha!!! then yeahh...we waled over to taka and walked arnd..hahahah....then yeah we met chrys and shyaza at taka....OMG shyaza looked like some 25 yrs old girl!!!!!! i was so shocked ok!!!! ahhhh!!!! she looks so matured!!! haahahahahahahahahaha!!!ok chrys is goin america tmr...aww...its gonna be so sad...sigh....i m angry at darryl...caz also...he betrayed me!!! and i hate betrayers!!! but its good right??? that everythin jus stops...wahh today i jus found out that chrys has many suitors!!!! maurice....andy....darryl...and alloy....oohhhh!!!!! poor michael/....his gf kana stolen!!! sigh,.....this chrys so unfaithful....hahahah!!! ya but darryl is apologising ...should i forgive?????? nahh....i shouldnt

2006-10-17T21:57:00.000-07:00

i love this display pic.///...cos it really illuminates how i feel...anyway, out of the sad moments..oh i love goong( princess hours)..haha, its so nice la..haha, ethel invited me to go to her hse ltr..yeeks! i wanna go but i m down with a flu..cough and soar throat...oh yeah, i shall tell u abt saturday. going escape theme park with chryselda, sarah and sherri.haha!!! it was so funn!!!! we sat on this shipp which was so extremely scary lar!!!! i was so scared ok..and started screaming like hell..after sitting 3 rides i had an enormous headache and wah lao..cant play lor..i think i m getting old..sigh..oh then when we took that ship thing again...wah lao...this pervetic malay guy right..when the ship moving downwards right, he go say this to everybody on the ship " my stomach no hair!!!"...i started laughing like crazy..i mean pls lar, who will bother if his stomach got hair la...hahahahahahahahha!!! so stupid mann,,.hahhahahha!!!! what an asshole la..hello???is public area lehh...stil wann to say that...lol...i m now hearing paris hilton's nothing in this world...haha, cool huhh??? i love that song,..haha, but nearly all her songs the lyrics quite weird one...haha..i have lao shi's msn...and her dp is soooooooooooooooooooooooooo weird i tell u!!! and she is suuper ego ahh...u knoe her dp is a pic of herself and u knoe what...she is staring at the sun...stupid rite???? wah lao...poeple in singapore all so stupid one ahh...hahahhaha!!! haha..ok i m now hearing perfect by simple plan..serene gan must be sooooo happy..haha,,,ok...hahhaa!!!! i m seriously sooooo bored....i am down with a flu, cough and soar throat...hahaha!!! my voice sounds like michael's now...ahahahahhahaahhahahahahahahahhahahaha!!!!!! oh man...i miss tuition....so so so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i miss makin fun of nigel and co.!!!!!!!!anyway..gotta go!!!!

2006-10-17T08:16:00.000-07:00

some bloody idiot spammed my blog..and what ??? that idiot called me a fat dick??? LOL..obviously that person's IQ is damn low la...why??? spammer's parents no money to send spammer to school to learn ahh??? haha, poor asshole, no wonder, untalented bitch huh...even this also dunno...GIRLS DON HAVE DICKS!!!! what an asshole...hahha!!! what a stupid person!!! dumb ass la!!!! nowonder must be from some cheapo bloody family...spammer!!! yr family sux la!!! what parents do u hav>>>??? ask them to work hard and send u to school la!!! got problem la!!!! WTF...i painted my nails greyish..hehe, now red earth have offer, one nail polish is 16 dollars but two is 24!!! hehe, buahahahaha, today i managed to pick up some courage and tell "him' i like him..hahahha!!! on msn la...then after u said it, i blocked him...hahaha!!! typical celine kee!!! scared of everything...buhhahahaha!!!ok i seriously love my font on msn,..haha!!! hees, i m wondering what the rest of the people are doing??? sighh...yeahh todae my problems came again!!! but i shall not say it bcos i m STRONG!!! i m not gonna cry anymor!!! my mom says she wants to send me to another school next year...issit a good or bad thing??? i guess its a good thing since i m , well i think i m , a burden to people...but yeah, this is lyfe, i guess u have to let go of somethings just to have what u want..yup..nothing is perfect in this world..ok i realised cy always online one..it scares me..doesnt he needa sleep?? its like 11 something at night and he is still online??? is he ok??? is he tired??? sighh...and actually todae i realised who were my true frends,...yupp, but now i finally understand that i prefer havin a single rose than a rose in a buch of weeds..haha, u knoe what that means?? it means celine kee has grown up alr..she knoes what is right and wrong alr..!!! yupp, she finally understood the meaning of "friendship'....i think carolyn is angry with me...but its ok la..its up to her...school is ending...in 1 week...i should not care anymor cos yeahh, this is their life rite? not mine...i knoe our friendship is falling apart...i jus noe....i m prepared alr...yupp...i am!!! and no matter what, i will never cry and never feel sad!! i have to be strong cos i have to!!! i wil not be the old me!!! i m dead alr...yup my heart has turned into a rock..and my blood has turned into water...hopefuly...i can remain as DEAD

The me inside is dead already; now i have re-borned and now time is changing me to be a person that isnt afraid of anything...

2006-10-16T01:59:00.000-07:00

ok...so my friends are off to sarah's sleepover..but for me, i am staying at home doing nothing...i cant stand it anymore,,...isnt psle over? why is my life still so stressful..i slept at four last night and woke up at 12 this morning,,i was thinking abt some stuff..and i realised that i changed...the me that cared and stuff has died..now it seems that i have became stronger as i watch the walls around me crumble, yup, my tears has turned into time,,..i just have to wait for thelast day of school when all my problems just settle down...i wish i can run away,,,it seems i m so afraid..the world is spinning and i am stilll living,,,...what is this?????? honestly, i just wish that i never exsisted,..then i dont have to face this entire situation on my own...i cant bare the fact that i am alone...all alone...because i just cant find someone thst i really can trust...erghhh...CELINE!!!! WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel like screaming at myself...i always seem so happy , smiling ang laughing all the time but beneath the smile and everything, it uncovers the truth of who i really am, just a lonely girl who is just so tired of everything,...her life and everything...sigh...i swear i wont miss "him" but....CAN I???????????? i cant,,,...i knoe no matter what, no matter how bad i feel, i will never forget "him"...i just can't let myself let go of the "feeling" i have for "him"...i know things would be hard for me...and i wanna runaway,...i really do!!!! I M SO SCARED!!!!! its like in one minute, u had everything and then in one second,your everything just slips away and turns to ashes and you are left with nothing....i guess my last wish is to just die and forget everything,,,...yupp die in "his" eyes...i m really scared about the future and my destiny...i am scared for no reason...no particular reason...i m just so afraid...there is just so much hatred and maybe jealousy in me...which makes me turn into a baddie and i always end up being the "bad" person, just like movies, i always thought life is like a garden..beautiful flowers and fresh air and green leaves and trees...now, a garden turns into a prison cell..all full with metal bars and acided air and so dark and like hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what happened to the encouragement i give others?????????i always try helping others but i cant even help myself....i guess i m just showing my true colours...the real me ....those who think i am so free and get what i want...now i guess you know how my life is,,,...yeah its dark..i m so bloody fed up...i use to care about everything...every friendship and everything,,,..i even get included in other people's business!!! hahaha..now that "me" is dead...the "me" who was always "act guai infront of teachers" , cheerful, stupid,careless, emotional...." has changed...to be a person who WONT SHED ANY MORE TEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YUPP MY TEARS HAVE DRIED UP, IT HAS TURNED INTO TIME!!!!!!!!! and even if i dont cry, i will never let anyone see the weak me, the weak soul that would exsist forever, even if i vanish, i will vanish alone...because for me, my life and my entire exsistence can be transformed into one simple word which explains my life...that word is ....ALONE...YUPP alone forever,,,...but people, don worry, i may be kinda dumb but, i am not stupid..i wont do anything stupid to myself...eventhough i hate life alot, i will never get rid of it..i will survive and withstand the pain until i take my last breath...well at least i hope that will happen....yupp...i gotta be strong!!! i really hope i can withstand all the pain and depressing moments!!!! i m hearing too little too late by jojo now...it kinda explains my anger towards "him"...yupp time has made me strong!!! "time has made me strong" is one phrase in the song ...haha...sometimes i wish i can scream at "him" telling "him" this " ITS TOO LATE !!!! U ALREADY TORE ME INTO A MILLION PIECES!!!" yupp, as i said...in this road of life, i walk alone...i walk alone forever....and ever.....the pain will never end for me....i m jus alone........forever.......................................

confessions of a broken heart;;

2006-10-14T21:46:00.000-07:00

if i lay here, if i just lay here,would u lie here with me and just forget the world????????????????- this is the question i wanna ask someone..but yeahh...is it wrong for me to ask that ? i don wana let go ...i just need "u" to know..i don wanna run away..i jus wanna die in your eyes..here tonight..when we are together doing things...everytime i m with "u"..i feel like i m in heaven..i don wanna run away.."u" are the one i need tonight,...now i need to hold u tight
i jus wanna die in yr eyes...i don wanna run away..i wanna stay forever..i don wanna be alone..i jus wanna die in yr eyes!!!

2006-10-14T20:02:00.000-07:00

i have his msn. but tht is not good news..sigh, i jus cant do this anymore..i cant pretend to be a guy anymore...i jus cant! i tried being a boy yesterday night to find how his personality is and stuff..i tried acting boyish..but i jus cant!!!!! I M A GIRL!!!!!! i can nvr do this...sigh, and i think..he knoes but he nvr block me, which is good news, he knows i m celine..sigh,. when caz talked to him,,he jus knoes la...sigh. this morning, i went online, and i tried talking to him but i was scared,,..i did not wann him to hate me. i really dont!!! then, i saw his display picture........................and it just shook me ....... it was another girl. I DONT UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY IS LIKING HIM SO HARD???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? WHY HER>???????/////>>??????? WHY MUS HE TREAT ME LIKE THAT??????????????????? I DON GET IT I REALL DONT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT MAKES ME SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO AFRAID NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! maybe ......i shld just give up....

2006-10-10T06:26:00.000-07:00

haha...yayy today was the end of psle..haha..oki have not been posting for so long..lol,,tuition first...lol..i hate yin hui okay!!! errghh!! wah lao..haha.anyway..yeah tuition end le..aww..so sad
lol..okay i have like a list of things i wanna do la..i m kinda lost le..lol,. yeah...today i entered dior and guess what? omg ...i felt like i was in paris hilton's dressing room...i love dior..so so so much mann...okay..i must try to achieve 238 for my psle score..erghh! but realli..its so big and stuff...ahh.!!!! then the stupid salesgirl was like looking down on me ok!!!! errghh!!! like what the hell is wrong la!!! i look that lc mehh? like hello la,,i m a customer and she acts like she owns dior like that...hello/; she is only A SALESGIRL IN DIOR!!! stupid la she..what an ass!!! oh haha..amyway keep u updated!!!

free;;

2006-08-26T21:19:00.000-07:00

haha..friday night was family night..was soo funn!!! at first, i was like so bored as my mom was there,,sigh..then i had a great time at the disco mann!!! haha..chryselda was like dancing! so funny!!! to think of it, makes me laugh!!! haha..but yehh we were like all shouting out the lirics of the songs and yahh, there was like click five, simple plan( serene was crazy when they played their songs) , pussycat dolls, high school musical..haha!!! so funn lehh!!! then now is sunday..my legs are still soar and blistered!!! ouch! errhh but i had a great time mann,.its really worth the pain..haha..bcos it was reaLLY cool..like all of us singing and shouting and screamin and jumping!! haha..but i mean yahh, i m dead serious!!! it was reallehh cool!!! i wishh we could do it again!!! esther's birthday on friday!!! which was also family night!!! i hoped she felt okay cos she was like real grumpy!! hehe..i went shopping with like serene, carolyn, silyn, alexis, fishh, ame , ethel and esther..but then i met chryselda, sherri and sarah at hyatt and we ate lunch at mezza 9. hehe..was sooo cool@! we started talking in american acent!! haha,and like we were the only kidds there!!! so everyone was like staring and there were like three pathetic LC women who looked down on us!!! so what if we are kidds!!! she ass la! the price was like a bomb for us cos for the first and hopefully the last time, I WAS BROKE!!! hello??? 110 dollars for shopping!!! ahemm!!! i m still sooooo pissed with my dad!!! so yahh, i had a plate of noodles,, chryselda had spring rolls and mushroom soup which cost 36 in total for her..the total for us was like 88 dollars and something sense..GST was 4 dollars plus!!! but was damm funn going out with them la!!! we went for movie afterwards and yahh, okay la the movie!! but as usual, me and sherri suffered as we were sitting next to chryselda..and worst of all , it was a COMEDY!!! so, as usual..HER CRAzzy LAUGH!!! SIGHH..but now, no more hitting and slapping!!! now ..PUSHING!!! ahh yohh!!! ohoh..GUESS WHAT? u know who was sitting with us???/ MARISSA !!! haha,,so qiao rite?? haha.. but okay la, then yahh i bought a new roxy pencil case and then we went to wheelok to meet kimberly, then ya we shopped at zara!! haha..then ya, i got A photo of kimberly..and i showed esther and silyn, silyn started laughing..esther was like sticking up for kinmberly!!!!!!! i guesss ya mann!@!! sweet couple!!! kim likes her, and she likes kim!!! okay, this sounds soo less!!! haha...kim was like asking me what was esther's reaction!!! so sweet!!! haha..so cute rite?? THE SMALL LITTLE COUPLE!!! ESTHER AND KIMBERLY GAN!!! haha!!! then chryselda, sherri and sarah came my hse before family night then we dressed up, touched up on make up..yahh, GIRLS!!! haha!!! GIRLS ARE SUPPOSE TO BE VAIN!! VAINPOTS!!! haha!! i m listening to the pussycat dolls " beep"!!! i love that song mann!!! okay , anyway, gtg!!!

2006-08-18T08:22:00.000-07:00

profile:

name: ck;celine;
school: scgs!! (6seohsix rox!)
<#33: close friends( kionnahh,dwixie,mrs gomez,dino,lexx,fishhehh,sherri,yingmei,natalie yap,carolgoh,amelia,ethel,sarah,..) crushhes(ahemahem), friends,classmates,someteachers, shopping!!!dressing up(lol), smsing,talking(as everyone knoes) , laughing at funny jokes!!!
type of songs: hehe..sad sad one la..like those "painpain" type..wah those type..so sadd lor!!! okay with everytype of music
hates: bay,yeo,teachers(some),ugly people, michael, jessica miao,attention seeking people,act cool poeple,les,gays, mr kok, irritating people, annoying people, donald triumph, show off bitches, poeple who makes me suffer, poeple who likes showing off their lv,gucci,chanel,fendi bags!!!

sucky life

2006-08-18T08:05:00.000-07:00

hehe.hello everyone. me again.hi
ahyah, my mom has a stupid new car. sigh, i don't wanna talk about it..it makes me feel so sad. its a stupid cheapo brand la..sigh...mann!!! it sux la!!! now listening to carrie underwood!!! pls take away my agony mann!!! sigh,,;;mann..i just checked my tagboard..haha..yayy!!! chryselda says she might be comin back to sc!!! yayy!!! haha..i mean yahh..without her, very boring one lorr..no "slapping laugh" and no funny jokes about "ahem,(baby zakaria!!! the head)..haha!!! see, i started laughin even when i m typing mann!!! haha...see chrys!!! stay mann!!! we all need ya mann!!! stay la...don't be so evil! hehe,, ahh yahh..i'm starting to like carrie underwood.hehe..very nice!!! lol, right,..hehe,..today i saw elvin on the magazine!!! lol,,hehe!!! i felt so happy!!! haha`! right,,my god! this song rocks mann!!! me and carolyn were talkin jus now ..hehe// so funn !!! mayb life isnt that bad..oh btw chrys, if u r reading this post, this is for u:

why we need chryselda in our school next year?

she is funny,she is nice(sometimes), she is a really cool friend and especially when she laughs, she is insulting(is that good>_) , she is vulgar(sometimes when blows!_) , she makes people laugh even if they are so sad!!! without chryselda in our class , we will die of boredom!!! so chrys, cant leave the school ya,..you really are a cool friend mann!!! don't leave ya!!! RAWK ON GIRL!

GO;GO;GO chryselda!

2006-08-18T07:27:00.000-07:00

hehe..these few days was smsing a tuition guy called darryl. haha..very fun!!! haha.I had like 1oo something smses bfore smsing and now shhoot up to 500..lol..then like everynight have confrence!!! hehe..today was chinese oral..i think i did quite fine..so i came down and on my hp la..then there was 3 new messages la! heehee..so i check, two from my tuition teacher then one from darryl la!!! haha..he ask us to meet at novena..oh btw, he likes chryselda.hehe..so then we meet at junction 8 la..me , chryselda and sherri la!!! haha..then we reach there, chryselda went to coffee bean buy a drink then i saw him and his two friends la!!! haha..so funny then i ran to chryselda (was kind of embarassed) then like tell her.THEN this stupid shy people followed us la, then sit down!! actually we wanna say hi one but then ahh..girls cannot say hi to boys! must be boys say hi to girls la! so we kept quiet!!! heehee..so funny..then they follow us everywhere la!!! quite fun actually!!! he wants to treat us a meal bcos we spent money on him. haha..quite gentleman la!!! but i not going, it will be so embarassing going out with a boy who is shorter than you!!!haha

2006-08-12T05:31:00.000-07:00

what the hell..today had tuition from 9 am to 6:30 pm..sigh..so stress!!! haha yesterday was like damn fun in school la...cos this guy from tuition called darryl likes chryselda..haha!!!so we were like calling him cos he wanted chryselda to call him la..then we call..then haha..so funny..then chrysleda ask us to pretend to be her boyfriend..so tanya tried la..then i took the phone and i pretend to b a guy la..i was like " you better stop pestering her before i kick your dick!" haha...lol..so funny..it was kinda fun...haha...

2006-08-10T00:20:00.000-07:00

song:

SUPERMAN:
I CANT STAND TO FLY, I'M NOT THAT NAIVE, I AM JUST DOWN TO FIND THE BETTER PART OF ME, I'M MORE THAN A BIRD, I'M MORE THAN A PLANE, I'M MORE THAN SOME PRETTY FACE BESIDE A TRAIN AND ITS NOT EASY TO BE ME..

I WISH THAT I COULD FLY, FALL UPON MY KNEES, FIND A WAY TO LIE, BUT I HOPE I NEVER SUCCEED,IT MAY SOUND ABSURB, BUT DONT BE NAIVE COS EVEN HEROES HAVE THE RIGHT TO BLEED, I MAY BE DISTURBED, OH WONT YOU COULD SEE, EVEN HEROES HAVE THE RIGHT TO DREAM AND ITS NOT EASY TO BE ME...

I CANT STAND TO FLY, I'M NOT THAT NAIVE, MAN WANT MAN TO RUN, WITH CLOUDS BETWEEN THEIR KNEES,I AM ONLY A MAN AND I AM LOOKING FOR SPECIAL THINGS INSIDE OF ME , INSIDE OF ME, INSIDE OF ME ..
I'M ONLY A MAN LOOKING FOR A DREAM...I AM ONLY A MAN..AND ITS NOT EASY TO BE ME...

2006-08-10T00:04:00.001-07:00

okay i thought it through and okay, maybe i still like him...MAYBE...but i am still so confused..haha..it all was like a joke then it came into true life..

remembers....
it was beginning of 2006 tuition class..me and fishy only...i kept teasing her about chia...haha!!! then she got quite fed up so she said i like lim...when i did not!!! then she kept calling me mrs lim and i kept calling her chia...it was quite for awhile..then every week, when i go for tuition, i have this weird feeling...like as if i really like him..then soon i found out that i really like him...when i heard he liked this girl called denise or something, i even cried...and i went through so much pain and tears when it was that period..is love that difficult?? or issit bcos i don have the guts to express myself??? i am so confused..and broken;;

now i have other problems..like with serene...i wanna help her with her problem...i knoe why she is doing this to herself but i just dont get it...many people have been telling me that serene stares sadly when me , tanya, kiona, chryselda and esther are together,..it makes me worry...i want her to be happy...i don want her to be a sad gloomy person..anyway, i have already decided...i needa take a break of all these...i wanna go to serene for maybe awhile until i completely tried helping her with her depressed period..she is super important to me..!!!! i don wish anything to happen to her..i might lose her if she cuts the wrong place...and i ...and i don noe..i guess she does not know how much she means to me!! its like a world without a sun..everything warm and no light..all dark..and yehh, i guess thats just so important!!!!!!!!!!! i will never forggive myself if anythin happens to her..i wanna help her and i will try till i succeed!!!

2006-08-10T00:04:00.000-07:00

2006-08-09T23:57:00.000-07:00

for security reasons..i m changing the pass and umm..noone will know exept some friends whom i really trust....those that arent that big mouths and people who really can understand me..sorry for the notice..

2006-08-09T23:48:00.000-07:00

oh my god..i just recieved a call from fishy..and guess what, i feel so terrible...there is like a mixed feeling in me..sadness and happiness...i don know how to express my self..so i guess the truth is out...oh no..i am trying to find the words to explain my agony...the pain kills mann,,,fishy called and said that chinying has fallen for chryselda...he told her..oh godd..i feel so useless and empty for the first time ever... i cant say anything mann...i just smsed chryselda to tell her the 'happy" news...and i ..i..i knooe i hate him..i really dont like him anymore but why do i feel this way mann...full of jealousy and anger and sadness...its like as if someone plunged a dagger into me..i wanna cry but the tears cant come out...maybe..maybe i still like him???

2006-08-09T19:05:00.000-07:00

sigh...later have this really boring math tuition...sigh...tomorrow must go back to school and i have not even done my homework, haha!!! now my mom quite nice to me ...she let me come online..sigh..so sad...i m still thinking od ai qing ling du c...haha!!! i am talking to chryselda and tanya online..i am still so happy that mr kok dont needa come!!!ohoh...singapore idol was yesterday night!!! joakim sang well lorr..andand...i think jasmine was quite okay...sigh feel like going shopping..i still needa get my hoop earings...sigh..i needa go to WISMA!!! i want my earings!!!!haha..kioz came online..mann..all my good frens all come online at this hour!~!! haha

2006-08-09T19:03:00.000-07:00

i love elvin everybody!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-08-09T07:12:00.000-07:00

todays chryselda's birthday..suppose to go her house watch ai qing ling du c again..but then she need to go somewhere...national day is today!!! happy birthday singapore..wow..we had a great national day yesterday at school...especially..when it was the singing time..haha!!! then all of us and mrs zakaria were like singing loudly..me, chryselda and tanya were like screamin until our throats were like swallon...hhaha!!! wait..is that the correct spelling? yahh..i think so. then it was so funny...we were like wishing to have a soar throat so we dont needa answer queations during tuition!!! haha!!! cool right>? yehh then we were like cheering for like teachers when they were playing this game!!! so cool!!! sigh today have mr kok's lesson...ah yah..i really hate him mann!!! this stupid tuition teacher..today was my last lesson so yayy!!! haha..you know my KOK cant pee properly..its like evrytime he comes my hse..we would have to clean the toilets..haha!! cos his pee will splatter everywhere!!! haha!!! maybe his COCK got problem..BAD AIMING MR KOK!!!lol

2006-08-09T07:05:00.000-07:00

hey everyone!!! changed my blog to www.deepestdesires-.blogspot.com..
nice skin right!!! haha...okay must make this official...everyone..i have an important announcement i have to make....i love elvin ng!!!!!

i love elvin ng!!!